cut & i

(opening scene:

the heavy, gray clouds roll in as thunder announces a storm.

the fragrance of rain is close at hand, and all is still with anticipation.

i wait with excitement for the drops to start coming down.

the rain is my redemption, and i am devout.

the people are apprehensive.

many are apathetic.

no one is happy.

no one, that is... except for me.

i am strong and courageous and genuinely content.

i am ready.

i am ready to begin living for something other than me.)

i will sing with the rain, giving thanks for my every breath.

cut out my voice box

and i will dance in the rain, as it washes over my dehydrated body.

cut off my legs

and i will write about the rain, as i capture every detail down on paper.

cut off my hands

and i will listen to the rain as it pours down a melody onto the rooftops.

cut off my ears

and i will watch the rain sliding softly off the widows of the cars passing by.

cut out my eyes

and i will smell the sweet rain soaking into the driveways around me.

cut off my nose

and i will lie in the rain, feeling the cleansing drops fall onto my skin.

and when the rain turns to ice,

numbing and cutting through my pale blue skin,

i will dream with gratitude of the beauty i have witnessed.

hi my name is jessie. so what?

i write without thinking, and think without speaking.

i am human, it is true; imperfect and a fool.

i have a pulse. and my heart beats pretty regularly.

i am a student, but let's just say solving quadratic equations

isn't my cup of tea.

tea?

yes... tea.

i like to stare.

i like to dance and wear socks.

i'm not a hopeless romantic, 

so don't buy me roses

and expect me to fall in love with you.

please & thank you.

i trip over myself often and love to be the center of attention.

really?

yes... really.

i'm not good with names unless they are middle names.

i love middle names.

i love eating ice cream with little spoons

(it makes it last longer).

i think i believe i know what i'm talking about

when i tell people why i am the way i am.

that is, if i ever explained myself to people.

which i don't.

huh?

nevermind.

i feel i am getting off track 

and do not wish to bore you any longer with information about myself, which you will probably forget in about 23.56 minutes (approximately).

i would say goodbye, but quite frankly, i hate goodbyes.

especially when i don't even know who i'm saying goodbye to. 

so i will say hello instead.

hi my name is jessie and now you know

just how random i really am.

tonight

i breathe.

i listen.

i wait.