[now i know]

i'm caught in the midst of this beautiful evil
that captivates, yet pains me. its hands stretch out
as if to comfort, but reaching towards it now i feel

no air
left in
my lungs.

why has my heart begun to fold

into
a new and
crude routine?

i'm lost in the midst of this blinding upheaval
that leads, yet undermines me. its words come out
as if to help, but listening closely now i know

the truth
does not
deceive.

my dark heart soon will see and go

into
a new and
truer light.