as usual.

I DON'T CARE!

no, Jessie... you do care.

Silence screams in my face

as windows shatter

within me

cutting into my

limbs

bones

muscles

and pattern begins to erase me

and laugh in my face

as i fall again

back into sameness

back into apathy

back into salt water

streaming from my eyes

mocking me

burning me

drowning me

but i wonder if this time i am changed

am i new? am i different somehow?

arguments arise from this

yet not a word comes out

and i sit here questioning how i got here

and why i care

(all the while knowing i'm okay with who i am)